Another year just passed by. And like every year end, i relaxed and gave myself a day to reflect what i did last year. It used to be just another routine without any significance but this time, i found out that how important this year was and how desperately i wanted it to end. Not that this year was bad for me. I have finally found a footing in the career i chose, earned money that helped to free my mind a bit. But I was quite confident that these things would have happened to me at some point if i stay on course. I was never in a race, never in a hurry to reach a financial or career goal.
The reason i wanted this year to end and start a new one is a realisation so big that can effect the rest of my life. I always made a fun of me as being unsocial, a loner. Never realised i will become just that so early. In these three years, i took steps to exercise my social skills as best as i can. Except for one rare instance where showed my ugly side while in control of a feeling i hate now, losing a wonderful friendship in the process, i never backed away from anyone on my own. Maybe i made one mistake too many..or maybe i am destined to live life differently
That must have helped me to made up my mind finally and i want to leave that badly bruised personality of me behind and strengthen the side that helped me overcome every tough period until now. Finally, i will tread a path that will lead me to a destination. There will be no confusion anymore. A year later, i will check this writing again to confirm what i asserted today. And no one will be happier than me if i can live up to my expectations that time.
Leaving the 'busy' world for good, entering a world of peace and calm. A new year, a new life.
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